I should go tomorrow.

It'll give me some kind of inclusion. And maybe recognition?

You know, if the plans don't miraculously fail again.... *ahem.

Maybe I was being paranoid

Or maybe you just got over it eventually...

Being on the internet actually upsets me now.

It's amazing how the one place that used to be my respite, my sanctuary, is actually now the place that makes me feel worst right now.

Clearly my bed is the only place I can feel alright.

I just don't understand

How some people can be so unthoughtful, ungrateful and two-faced and yet still come out the other side better off. It's constantly there; everywhere is society. The manipulators win out. It's infuriating.

The worst part is when no one else sees their schemes and their stories. Oh yeah great, just worship her, why don't you. That's a great plan. Because she's really completely perfect. Yeah sure.

ARGHWEFWFIEWEIFNKLWEM:L

It's a good thing no one cares enough to check this.

I need somewhere to put stuff when I feel like ranting. Somewhere no one will check that I know who will get offended for some reason or other . I can't just write it out in a book, I lose any form of journal as soon as I start it. And I want to keep it so I can read it through and hopefully feel better.

I figure I may as well put this account to good use then.