Monday, 20 November 2017

I don't know if I trust you.

Of course I'm going to be paranoid. This has all happened pretty quickly.

I tried so hard not to get attached but somehow my subconscious went ahead and did it anyway.


It seems so legitimate on the surface but especially with the distance it's hard to know what to trust. And there's still that voice in the back of my head telling me it's all a trick to make me look like an idiot.

And if it is for real, then what? I told myself I wouldn't go back to that situation again, it's just too difficult and too painful. It's not fair. And apparently me telling you as such has put a nail in the coffin anyway.

But then again it would be a shame to let it all go when it's only just started. There's so much potential.

And then I go right back round to thinking it's a trick.

It probably won't last long anyway. I should just get on with my life and wait for this to stop being an issue as per usual.