Wednesday, 26 February 2014

I am fucking loving life

Seriously, I may have been drinking, and be listening to beautiful music but I seriously have loved this year so far. And whilst I am completely ready for a new adventure I seriously want to make it clear how much I have loved tonight I guess.
Alex, you are amazing, Thank you so much for convincing me out tonight.
No matter what my dad says I'm applying for Nova Scotia and whether I regret it or not he can't try and control me with his "they're intolerant" bullshit. If it's true, I'll swallow my words but how can a UK university associate themselves with a place as racist as my dad is suggesting?! If it is the case then there is serious  reform to be done. If not I will hopefully be on my way to experience a different lifestyle.
I can see myself genuinely having  a good time there.

Thursday, 20 February 2014

The loneliness is starting to hit.

I loved last semester. Like really, really loved it. I'd felt closer to everyone here than I had since I'd met them and I was having all these amazing times and experiences constantly. It was amazing. I'm not sure how much happier I could have been. I'd made more friends and formed myself this close knit friendship circle I could actually rely on.

But everything has completely changed. And I saw it coming, I really did. That's why I was so reluctant to let it happen and I mentioned it so many times. I knew this would happen, despite all the reassurances otherwise.

I've lost my housemates. They're all coupled up or wrapping themselves back into other things. I've lost the guys in my life. Everyone's pulling away and busy with their own lives.

Being single last semester was amazing and the best thing. I didn't know how much I could enjoy it. But it's no fun when you're the only one left. It's no fun when you have to think about another person for every one of your mates.

Tuesday, 11 February 2014

I can't believe you tried to use me to make her jealous.

I've already told you I'm not interested. I've also made it extremely clear whose side I'd be on if it came down to you and her.

She's not interested; you need to move on.

Yes, I act that way with other friends of mine but they are such different circumstances. I know for a fact that they are acting the way they are out of friendship; not to use me to turn me as a weapon or against other people close to me.

You're a good friend of mine and I have tried so hard to help you; but if you are genuinely going to act this way then I would genuinely rather deny any connection to you.

How fucking dare you act that way. It genuinely offends me. And I hope you understand me enough to realise why.