Wednesday, 19 June 2013

I think the biggest thing I miss is the intimacy.

I just miss knowing you'll be there when I get back, or that you'll be round soon enough. I miss waking up in the middle of the night and seeing you there, whether you're turned away from me or not. I miss being able to cuddle, whenever at all. I miss knowing I'll have the company in most things I decide to do. 

I just miss having someone be close to me so much of the time.

Tuesday, 11 June 2013

I'm just so sick of being superfluous in this house.

I can't be bothered trying not to anymore, but I can't keep pretending I don't care, either.

I guess it's a good thing this year is over.

Sunday, 2 June 2013

I'm am so done.

It's time I put my foot down and finally put an end to this. I'm done with being walked all over and I'm done with being ignored.
This is going to stop being anyone's decision but mine. I'm going to take control of this situation before I get even more carried away.

Time for my self-discipline to kick in and allow me to stop doing this; even if it is something I enjoy. Yeah sure, why not take whatever I can, but it's gotten too far. It's going to get me hurt.

And I'm the only one who stands to lose out in this scenario. I'm the one who this backfires for. Enough is enough.

At the end of the day I need to take care of myself here, because sure as hell nobody else is going to.